Today I smile..
Because of you...
Do you remember the first time when we meet..
Right on that moment, I know you are the one...
I never thought of getting married at such a young age. Never did I expect myself to meet my life partner in my college. Becoming a wife was not in my planning too. I believed a miracle had happened on me. Little cupid had given up on toying me around, making me to fall in love with different men and lastly, ended up only to break my heart. A magic had been casted. This was when he appeared and we became good friends in such a short time. We progressed to be a couple soon and planned our future together. It took 6 to 7 months for us to know each other before we decided on this life time decision, that was to get married.
Many people asked why we made this move. Are you really sure that you want to marry him? Do you know that you are merely a 20-year-old girl? Do you know that you still have a long way to go until you finally graduate? Most importantly, is he the right one? All sorts of questions were thrown on us. I admit that this was not an easy situation to deal with especially when it comes to your parents and other family members.
Since we broke the news of getting married to our parents, the first reaction that I got from my mum was “It is okay with me. But, you better ask you dad”. My mother is always being the sporting and cool mother of all. She loves her children and understands us more than anyone else would do. But my father is the opposite. He is a strict person. He did not want us to fall in love or have a boyfriend or a girlfriend while we are still studying. As usual, we ignore it. How can we resist the fate of love? Obviously, no one can.
For 20 years, I have known myself well. I was not brave enough to say that I wanted to get married to my father. I would probably get kick out from the house. I could imagine his reaction and he would do whatever it takes to stop me. Thus, I decided to ask my ‘future husband’ to take the ‘risk’. He should meet my father and confess everything. Of course he was afraid too. But because he wanted it so badly, he called my father like a brave soldier. What was my father’s first reaction? He laughed! What? Is that it? My father thought he was just playing around. But in a serious tone, my future husband really spilled the beans. It took us so much time to negotiate with our parents. Same goes to my ‘future parent in-law’. They were shocked and advised us to think carefully.
Finally both of us think it is our final decision that we are going to get married in 17 April 2010. All of our family gathered and discussed about our wedding. Everything was running smoothly as we planned and we are now declared to be husband and wife.
I wondered if you knew..
That you were the one that took my heart away from me..
I can't get you off my mind..
Because I'm falling for you..
All my dreams and all my thoughts are all for you..
I think about you day and night..
Whether it's black or white..
There's nothing more to me than you...
It is already 7 months since we get married. How does it feel like to be a wife and at the same time you are a full time student? That is the biggest challenge that we have to face. I can never get pregnant since I am still studying. I have to manage my time and commitment to both my husband and my studies. So far, I managed to organized everything and live happily with my husband. I am lucky to have him - a very understanding but not a forceful person. We both balanced our commitment in order to success in life and also studies.
It is our dream to have a better job and live a wonderful life forever. We struggle with our studies in order to pay back our parents support which they gave whole-heartedly when we decided to get married. It was not easy for them too. Nevertheless we never forget them and we will always pray for their good health and life.
I thank God for making him my husband. I thank my family for their blessings. I thank my friends for being there to give me support. I thank my husband for willing to be my soulmate. I still remember when my husband gave me roses and a card one day. It says, “You are the best wife. I love you syg”. It touched me and I cried. Muhammad Hamizan Zakaria, Thank you. I love you and I will always do.
"Love is like a train ride to somewhere words can’t describe. It takes you to places unimaginable of, somewhere you would never expect. But like every adventure, love has its risk. Only those who dare to love, to live, to let go, are given tickets to board.”
